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dear XXX. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you somehow even though you never existed. interesting how life works, eh? we still talk for hours, in my head, [waiting for the next class to arrive,]<t1| []<t2| []<t3| []<t4| (click:?t1)[(replace:?t2)[waiting for the next day to arrive,]] (click:?t2)[(replace:?t3)[waiting for the next month to arrive,]] (click:?t3)[(replace:?t4)[waiting for the next lifetime to arrive.]] []<t5| (click:?t4)[(replace:?t5)[waiting for you to [[arrive.]]]]

my god it's like obsidian this is so cool

dear XXX. i arrived at the place you told me to go to. i told myself to go to? you're probably a hallucination anyway. yet i still followed you here. i don't usually leave home in the middle of the night. they say it's [dangerous]<w1|. (click:?w1)[(replace:?w1)[worrisome]] (click:?w1)[(replace:?w1)[dangerous]] and maybe it is. or maybe it's not. who's to say? thank you for leading me here. the woods are surprisingly nice at night. [with you.]<a1| (click:?a1)[(replace:?a1)[alone.]] []<a2| (click:?a1)[(replace:?a2)[alone.]] []<a3| (click:?a2)[(replace:?a3)[alone.]] []<a4| (click:?a3)[(replace:?a4)[alone.]] []<a5| (click:?a4)[(replace:?a5)[alone.]] []<a6| (click:?a5)[(replace:?a6)[alone.]] []<a7| (click:?a6)[(replace:?a7)[ [[alone.]] ]]

dear XXX. why. why would you do this. it was supposed to be [just you and me.]<a| []<a1|(click:?a)[(replace:?a1)[and yet here you are,]] []<a2|(click:?a1)[(replace:?a2)[making me talk to an actual person,]] []<a3|(click:?a2)[(replace:?a3)[when you of all people should know.]] []<a4|(click:?a3)[(replace:?a4)[i am only ever allowed to be alone.]] []<a5|(click:?a4)[==(replace:?a5)[==so stop it. please. this can't be happening. nobody cares. nobody should care. i don't matter! nobody understands. nobody understands ''us.'' you know what that girl will do if you make me get too close? she'll make me forget about you. because people aren't suppose to care about [people who aren't real.]<r| []<r1|(click:?r)[(replace:?r1)[so i shouldn't care about you. and [she]<s| shouldn't care about me either. because at this point i'm not real anymore.]] []<s1|(click:?s)[(replace:?s1)[what? i don't care about [[her]] either.]]

dear XXX. i'm sorry. it's been a while. you were probably right in the end, huh? i still don't know exactly what you are. but i appreciate it. i think [she]<s|saved my life.(click:?s)[(replace:?s)[you]] []<y|(click:?s)[(replace:?y)[by introducing me to her. so she could save my life. i still don't know why she cares so much. i fear i'm undeserving of it. but it's come to a point where i'm forced to accept it. we're gonna be free soon. free via life. it felt like such a faraway concept just a small while ago. feel free to come along for the ride. i know you'll be watching. even if i slowly start to forget as i spend more time in reality. i'm [sorry.]<ss| (click:?ss)[(replace:?ss)[not sorry.]](click:?ss)[(replace:?ss)[sorry. farewell. thank you again for everything.]]]]